And then you were there.

You're here. Well, you're there...in my stomach.

Wow! Did I really just say that?

After a whole two years of wishing and waiting and hoping and praying, you are there. And all of the worry and hopelessness is over just like that. I can't believe it!

On December 28, I stayed home from work because I was feeling a little dizzy and sick when I got out of bed to get dressed. All day I felt very tired and I don't think I moved from the couch once. (Something I'm taking full advantage of before you make your debut.)

Then, Saturday I woke up and felt a little sick again. Your dad went to the gym and while he was gone I started thinking about a couple of other symptoms that I've been having and it just kind of hit me. I was very reluctant to come out and say what I was thinking because we've been disappointed so many times in the past. But I prayed about it and just felt very convinced that I should talk to your dad about how I was feeling.

He came in from the gym and I was sitting at the bar, and I just blurted it out: "I think I'm pregnant." A very small smile appeared at the corners of his mouth and he asked why. I went on to tell him about everything and how I was feeling, and we decided that I would take a pregnancy test in a few days.

On New Year's Eve, I felt very sick all day with nausea. Your dad picked up a test on his way home from work and we didn't waste a single second. The test only takes two minutes to give the results. During those two minutes, I was thinking about the jumping up and down, crying and hugging and kissing that was sure to unfold. But when the time was up we looked at the test and were very puzzled. Is it positive? Is that a blue line? I don't know I can't tell. So are we pregnant?

It wasn't exactly the scenario that I planned. But after digging further into the instruction booklet and looking at some examples online, we were able to verify that indeed you were in there.

And then it just felt...peaceful. No jumps for joy, no yelps of excitement. It just felt right. I took another test on New Year's Day just to be sure, and it looks like you're still in there.

 2013 is going to be a good year.